I am not new to the pregnancy loss community. I have experienced two early losses, one in 2013 and one in 2015, but in July of 2020 I was told I had a missed miscarriage. I was 10 weeks along but our baby had stopped growing at 7 weeks.
Going through my early losses was hard, I felt alone, ashamed, and that I couldn’t talk about it. I also felt like I was the only person going through this. Losing our baby in 2020 was a completely different experience. I had two living children at home and one old enough to ask questions. That day I found out how compassionate and caring my 4 year old son was. Medical professionals, friends and family held space for myself and my family, that definitely helped to not feel so alone especially having a complicated D&C during a pandemic.
I found support in speaking about the loss of our baby on social media, to show others they aren’t alone. In doing so sparked a flame in me and pushed me to do more, I found community and passion in Twinkle Star and I am glad I am able to support others who may feel lost and alone. I can do my part my knitting baskets, being a support to someone and being on the board and having a voice for change in the perinatal loss community.